Geez, I've been waking up a lot lately at 3 am with anxiety, getting myself out of bed, and then catching up on friends blogs and emails! I have a lot on my mind lately, and sometimes can't sleep.
It's not bad anxiety, though. It's good energy that leaves me feeling excited and restless.
I used to do this a lot in high school when I was anticipating a concert. I remember being up all night with stomach jitters, the night before seeing Bad Religion (for the 3rd time!) Nowadays it's not mosh pits and punk music I'm anxious about, it's homeschooling parties, Zumbathons, and La Leche League meetings. There's a lot of fun to be had with life, and I am stoked to do it!
I guess these 3 am catch-ups help me balance out my day, and send me back to bed feeling calmer.
And I would go back to bed right now if the rain wasn't so loud. The rain here comes down in thunderous blasts that jolt you awake and make you think the sky is falling! The first time it happened I woke up and thought it was the end of the world.
Ahhhh, jungle life. Good news is that the kids sleep right thru it, while I lie awake thinking about mosh pits and punk music...I mean babies and rumba.