Monday, January 30, 2012

Road trip to Kona

This is how we entertain ourselves on road trips. haha. It takes us 3 hours to get across the island to the other side. More on that later.

Micah is pointing out different types of lava to Zadok. Mason Jennings is playing in the background. Odin is lifting up Jonah's leg over and over. ARE WE THERE YET?

Gecko Buddies

We all go nuts over these cute, little Day Geckos. What's there NOT to love about them? They are bright green with colorful spots, they live in your house and eat all the roaches, and when you catch one, it sticks onto you with it's adorable gecko toes.

Here's Odin trying to let baby Jonah "gently" touch the Gecko buddy without damage.

Have you hugged your gecko today?

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Turning 33

Today I turned 33 and it was such a lovely day. I realized today, that from here on out, my birthdays are going to belong to my boys! They were more excited about it than I was, so I couldn't help but be super excited, too. They couldn't wait to wish me a happy birthday when I woke up in the morning, and then all day long they had special hugs and surprises for me. The presents and meals they planned were orchestrated by Micah, who made sure the boys could follow their plans to throw me the happiest birthday possible. I felt so special to be surrounded by such a loving family.

It feels weird sometimes to be an official adult. Sometimes I still imagine myself as the awkward 17 year old kid I used to be. Thank goodness I am who I am today!
Here's a few thoughts I had today as I was thinking about my adult self, the 33 year old one:

**I am an adult.

**I like being a purely honest person. There was a time in my past when I felt okay exaggerating stories or "finding" things that didn't belong to me, or making excuses for myself. Whatever the situation, I knew when I wasn't being honest and it tugged at my heart. I have made a commitment to myself to always be truthful and honest in life, no matter how big or how little, and it has made a huge difference in my confidence.

**I'm a lot more moody and temperamental than I thought I would be. I think my whole life people told me I was always the happy, positive one who never let anything bother her. Maybe someone should've mentioned that adult people are not the same as young people and they can't be expected to stay the same.

**I still love running. When my feet hit the pavement I feel bliss, pure bliss.

**I hate having a messy house. When my house is cluttered, my whole brain feels cluttered. I spend a lot of time cleaning and organizing, and it makes me happy. Although if you saw my house right now you would think I was lying, so right after I get off this computer, it's tidy up time.

**I feel grounded in the gospel of Jesus Christ. I have learned over the years that you never have to try and "fit in" or label yourself, if you live your life for the Lord. He will lead you, and guide you towards the person you need to be, and that person will be happy. And cool. And fun. And have lots of friends.

**Becoming a wife and mother has been my refiners fire of all fires. Anyone who wishes to become a better person should have kids and be married. They have taught me how to do all the things I sucked at, such as being patient, being tolerant, being compassionate, being understanding...Plus how to communicate effectively, how to problem solve, how to be nice, selfless, and make food that isn't gross. I am so grateful for my family because they have molded me into something better than before.

**I have a lot of talents to share that won't be recognized by the world, but will benefit my family and those I serve around me. I will never be rich or famous, and I will probably never make it onto a reality TV show. (darn!) But I know I will always have love around me, and be surrounded by good people.

**I want to write a book someday. I can only type with 2 fingers at a time (yes, I know...embarrassing) and I don't have any time to write a book, but it's a little dream of mine. It's nice to have dreams, even if that's all they are.

**Bananas are still my comfort food. I have to limit myself or we run out too fast around here. Have you had your banana today? MMmmmmmm.

**I am pleased with how my hair turned out. It's kind of long and curly and I'm trying to take good care of it. If you knew me in high school or my young surfing days you would be proud of me because It was burnt and fried and I never brushed it.

**I am happy with who I am at this stage in life, yet always open to changes on my journey. I trust God to take me where I need to go.

** I never want to feel the affects of self-inflicted sorrow. I want to always make good choices in life, so I don't have to make myself or anyone around me sad. I know that sounds weird, but I think it's a real truth to live by. There will be plenty of sadness in life, just by virtue of being mortal and having natural challenges come our way.
I want to do all I can to bring a solid foundation of happiness, goodness, and peace into my life and to those lives I love around me. That's not too hard now is it? Just follow God's commandments, and goodness will follow.

** I am an adult who loves to have fu-u-un. I will always love to laugh and be silly. That's the truth!

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Happy to live hawaii

This past weekend we found ourselves at Honoli'i beach at 8am, where a large river meets the pounding surf. When we got there we were surprised to find that their was an actual sandy beach at Honoli'is where there is normally river! The tide was low, and the large, winter surf had moved things around a bit to form a beach. It was magic!
We had so much fun and stayed til 1pm, swimming and playing!
It was a beautiful day. One of those days where I got to just relax, look around at my family, and be grateful to live in beautiful Hawaii.

Here are some of the happy highlights from our day:

-Paddling out on my longboard and catching two fun waves in a row on a glassy, sunny morning.
-Zadok pointing to the water in the river and saying excitedly,"Look Mom, it's your favorite color, turquoise!" And then us jumping in the clear, turquoise water with a splash!
-Laying on the warm, river rocks with Odin, soaking up the warm sun. Odin turned to me and asked,"Mom, do you like lying here with me?" So I answered, "Of course I do, this is wonderful!" And he said,"Good, me too, me, too." And we lied there and basked in the sun together next to the ocean.
--Watching Micah paddle around in the water on a surfboard. Never thought I'd see the day where my husband on a surfboard!
-Helping the boys stand up on my surfboard in the calm water, so they could get a feel for the board. Zadok balanced really well on his two feet. Odin felt more comfortable paddling on his tummy.
-Stopping at the farmers market to buy fruit and watching as Jonah literally lunged out of his stroller to grab a banana from one of the stands. A nice Filipino woman selling bananas came over and gave him one. He sat there and shoved that banana in his mouth real fast! Then when I bought a musubi, he wanted some really bad. We watched as he happily shoved bits of rice in his mouth.
-Coming home sunburnt, tired, but refreshed and energized and so happy to live Hawaii. :)

Hawaii is really beautiful. There are places here that simply take my breath away.
I stand still and look up at the great big canopies of green trees and the vibrant, colorful leaves on the bushes, and am in awe. I am overcome at how all this beauty could be stored up and placed in one location. It seems unfair to the ugly parts of the world, like maybe Hawaii should spread it's beauty over to the barren deserts of New Mexico or something.
But maybe that's because Hawaii is a special place to me. Ever since I was a little girl I felt like this was Heaven on Earth. In fact, when I had thought I wasn't ever moving back, I used to ask God in my prayers to please make sure heaven was just like Hawaii so I could enjoy it again when I die. I know...silly, but that's how much I love it here.

The leaves on this bush have always been my favorite. When I was a little girl I took a whole bunch of them and sent them to my friend on the mainland. I remember asking her if she got my colorful leaves in the mail? She laughed and told me no, but she got some brown, rotten ones. I guess they don't ship well.

Monday, January 16, 2012


I've been struggling with myself lately, and it's been really hard. I tried turning off all the noise, and letting myself dig really, really deep to find out what has been truly bothering me and frustrating me. I took a serious look at my family, my husband, my kids, and everything around me, trying so desperately to figure out what I/we/them/everyone was doing wrong to make me so miserable. Until finally I realized that the one thing making life so hard was the this monster I created out of everything together, called EXPECTATIONS.
So, today I am throwing out all my expectations and starting over. I am rewinding the past 6 months and starting fresh.
I was starting to think there was something wrong with me, or my whole life! I was starting to wonder why it was so hard for me to make connections here, and to find friends. I was starting to wonder why every day was becoming a struggle to keep my head on strait, to know who I am and what I stand for, and to simply enjoy my little family.
When we got here, I threw myself into all the same groups, and clubs, and avenues of social networking. I put myself out there to make friends, and be a friend. I went the extra mile to collect people into our lives and reach out to those around us. But none of it was clicking, or sticking, or connecting. It was starting to seem like a big, fat waste of time and energy.
I made a HUGE realization this past week that we can't always do things the same and receive the same happy results. At points in our lives we have to turn a whole new direction, grow a whole different way, and find a new path. I didn't realize my path was turning so rapidly, so it caught me by complete surprise.
So here I am in a whole new place, a whole new culture, surrounded by rain forest, and rugged beauty, and surprising new turns for my life, throwing out my expectations and starting anew.

Change is good, I say. Especially if it brings you closer to happiness, and to the person you are supposed to be. Especially if it brings you closer to what the Lord has planned for you.