Today I turned 33 and it was such a lovely day. I realized today, that from here on out, my birthdays are going to belong to my boys! They were more excited about it than I was, so I couldn't help but be super excited, too. They couldn't wait to wish me a happy birthday when I woke up in the morning, and then all day long they had special hugs and surprises for me. The presents and meals they planned were orchestrated by Micah, who made sure the boys could follow their plans to throw me the happiest birthday possible. I felt so special to be surrounded by such a loving family.
It feels weird sometimes to be an official adult. Sometimes I still imagine myself as the awkward 17 year old kid I used to be. Thank goodness I am who I am today!
Here's a few thoughts I had today as I was thinking about my adult self, the 33 year old one:
**I am an adult.
**I like being a purely honest person. There was a time in my past when I felt okay exaggerating stories or "finding" things that didn't belong to me, or making excuses for myself. Whatever the situation, I knew when I wasn't being honest and it tugged at my heart. I have made a commitment to myself to always be truthful and honest in life, no matter how big or how little, and it has made a huge difference in my confidence.
**I'm a lot more moody and temperamental than I thought I would be. I think my whole life people told me I was always the happy, positive one who never let anything bother her. Maybe someone should've mentioned that adult people are not the same as young people and they can't be expected to stay the same.
**I still love running. When my feet hit the pavement I feel bliss, pure bliss.
**I hate having a messy house. When my house is cluttered, my whole brain feels cluttered. I spend a lot of time cleaning and organizing, and it makes me happy. Although if you saw my house right now you would think I was lying, so right after I get off this computer, it's tidy up time.
**I feel grounded in the gospel of Jesus Christ. I have learned over the years that you never have to try and "fit in" or label yourself, if you live your life for the Lord. He will lead you, and guide you towards the person you need to be, and that person will be happy. And cool. And fun. And have lots of friends.
**Becoming a wife and mother has been my refiners fire of all fires. Anyone who wishes to become a better person should have kids and be married. They have taught me how to do all the things I sucked at, such as being patient, being tolerant, being compassionate, being understanding...Plus how to communicate effectively, how to problem solve, how to be nice, selfless, and make food that isn't gross. I am so grateful for my family because they have molded me into something better than before.
**I have a lot of talents to share that won't be recognized by the world, but will benefit my family and those I serve around me. I will never be rich or famous, and I will probably never make it onto a reality TV show. (darn!) But I know I will always have love around me, and be surrounded by good people.
**I want to write a book someday. I can only type with 2 fingers at a time (yes, I know...embarrassing) and I don't have any time to write a book, but it's a little dream of mine. It's nice to have dreams, even if that's all they are.
**Bananas are still my comfort food. I have to limit myself or we run out too fast around here. Have you had your banana today? MMmmmmmm.
**I am pleased with how my hair turned out. It's kind of long and curly and I'm trying to take good care of it. If you knew me in high school or my young surfing days you would be proud of me because It was burnt and fried and I never brushed it.
**I am happy with who I am at this stage in life, yet always open to changes on my journey. I trust God to take me where I need to go.
** I never want to feel the affects of self-inflicted sorrow. I want to always make good choices in life, so I don't have to make myself or anyone around me sad. I know that sounds weird, but I think it's a real truth to live by. There will be plenty of sadness in life, just by virtue of being mortal and having natural challenges come our way.
I want to do all I can to bring a solid foundation of happiness, goodness, and peace into my life and to those lives I love around me. That's not too hard now is it? Just follow God's commandments, and goodness will follow.
** I am an adult who loves to have fu-u-un. I will always love to laugh and be silly. That's the truth!