Sunday, February 19, 2012

Feeling Better

Yesterday I took the two youngest boys on a drive in the car, since they weren't feeling well and we needed to get out of the house. I drove out of our neighborhood, down old Pahoa road. I took the long tunnel of trees towards Pohoiki Bay, I turned left past the Ahalanui-Kapoho warm pools, then looped back around past Lava Tree Park. This place didn't feel so big and unfamiliar anymore. It was starting to feel like.....home.
The boys fell fast asleep, and I drove in peace, soaking in the beauty all around me. I got a strong feeling that this is exactly where I'm supposed to be right now, at this time in my life. It was a good feeling.

On Friday one of my Young Women came over to help with the kids. A sweet girl of 13 years old, the middle child of 9 children. She was so wonderful, so patient, and she followed baby Jonah around like he was the most important person in the world.
In the past 6 years Micah and I have moved from place to place, job to job, school to school, raising our 3 young children alone. With no family, and few friends around, I hadn't realized how hard it's been on us. We are exhausted.
As I watched Maliana carry my baby across the yard, I felt peace, a huge weight off my shoulders. I felt that this was a place where we could share our children, where other people will love them and nurture them along with us.

Still got my old longboard. Here's me and Z at Honoli'i after a fun surf.

1 comment:

Zen Mama said...

You're not alone, Sally.


ps: this is Heather. Blogger refuses to hold hands with wordpress anymore.