Wednesday, April 25, 2012
It surprises me sometimes how immensely fulfilling it is to be a stay-at-home Mom. I feel so very blessed that I get to stay home to raise our boys, and grateful that this is something Micah and I both decided before having children.
We made a promise that whatever happened, through financial difficulty, schooling, and moving around, that I would be home with our children, no matter what. Even if it meant living in a small, dumpy shack, with hardly any money or material wealth, we would make it work. And we have. We always have just what we need, and I have found so much happiness and joy through being with my children, dumpy apartments and all.
If there's one thing I will look back on as a Mom, and will never regret, it is the time that I have with them each day.
Our days are open and un-rushed.
We have time to cuddle, time to hug, and time to go on spontaneous adventures.
We have time to read books, time to color, and time to make lunches and sit around the table together. We have time to pray, time to read scriptures, and time to talk about important things. We have time to do chores, time to do projects, and time to tell silly jokes that make us all laugh.
These are the simple moments that I love and will always look back on during these little years.
There are some comments from the October 2011 General Conference, retold by Neil Anderson, that really touched my heart. He is talking about the importance of children and explains,
"My daughters recently referred me to a blog written by a Christian mother (not of our faith) with five children. She commented: “Growing up in this culture, it is very hard to get a biblical perspective on motherhood. Children rank way below college. Below world travel for sure. Below the ability to go out at night at your leisure. Below honing your body at the gym. Below any job you may have or hope to get.” She then adds: “Motherhood is not a hobby, it is a calling. You do not collect children because you find them cuter than stamps. It is not something to do if you can squeeze the time in. It is what God gave you time for.”
I especially love that last line. It has really helped to give me perspective on what it means to be home with my kids. There have been overwhelming hard days where I've started to feel like I'm lacking, like I should be doing something more productive and important than hanging little people's laundry or making endless PB&J sandwiches. I was even a little worried that I would feel less fulfilled as I've taken a step back from my volunteer work with La Leche League for the time being, nor do I have any responsibilities in my church at the moment. Then I am reminded that this is what God gave us time for-to teach, to nurture, to love, and to raise these young children.
It's incredible to me that with absolutely nothing much else on my agenda, these little boys fulfill me to capacity.
Their little spirits have touched my life more than I could ever really explain.
I love these boys with all my soul.