Sunday, August 5, 2012

I can see clearly now....

It's really nice to have a functional brain.
Since I started on some medication for depression 6 months ago, I've been able to see my life clearly, the way it's supposed to be. It's crazy how I couldn't see what I needed for myself, until I got what I needed. That doesn't seem very fair, does it?
How many people are out there walking around in a fuzzy blur, not knowing what they need? Maybe too many.

I almost didn't start this medication. In fact, the first week I was on it, I felt like a total loser; Felt like I was turning myself over to the man. But then the drugs started kicking in, and I could suddenly see my life more clearly.

All the rage, the sad spells, the anxiety, the crying sessions, I could finally see that those things were not normal. My brain had been under a serious spell of post-partum depression, which I wasn't fully aware of.
Now that I can see my life the way it really is, I am much, much happier.
I don't fester or ruminate over problems. When I get upset, I pray, problem solve, and move on. I can't cry like I used to. When things upset me, I literally cannot shed any tears, unless it's something I'm really upset about. See? My brain is acting like itself again. I really think it took moving all the way to Hawaii to figure this out. Thank you, Hawaii.

The medication I'm taking is called "Selective serotonin re-uptake inhibitors", or SSRI's. It helps balance the imbalance of serotonin in my brain.
I just want to say that I am feeling happier, and more balanced than I've felt in a long time, and I am truly grateful for this medication. I imagine I won't be on it forever, but it's really helping me out right now.
Thank you friends for not suggesting I drink magic bean juice, or do more yoga because I am at peace with myself. Life is good.

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