It's my favorite day again! It happens every year. I like to pretend it's my New Year's Day-- the day I get to wipe my slate clean, start over, and march forth towards new horizons. (March 4th!)
This past year has been filled with lots of marching forth, as I've been moving towards new understandings of myself, my family, and how I can be a better person and mother. It's been exactly one year ago today since I faced the reality about my depression and got the help that I needed to march forth. It was during this past year that I decided to let go completely of memories that brought me pain and hurt, marching forth away from negativity. It was also among this past year that I decided to put my health first, taking care of all the things I wasn't happy about so I could march forth feeling confident and happy with myself! (like fixing my rotten tooth, changing my dependence on sugar, and making myself wear a hat and sunscreen.) It was during this past year that I truly began to understand the special needs of my hardest child and how I can be the mother he needs, so he can march forth, too.
Marching forth isn't always easy to do. I will always have things I struggle with and want to change.
For instance, I am sometimes a crappy listener, I don't pay attention to important details that matter to my spouse, I tune out my children when I'm tired and I spend more time on facebook than on current events.
However, I found this formula that may help:
Although I consider myself a very happy person, I also think it's important to stay aware of the changes that need to occur if I ever hit an unhappy bump in the road. If I ever start feeling stressed or overwhelmed, I know that something needs to change. I am grateful for this awareness, and feel that marching forth is the only way to make those changes. Today I would like to march forth towards being a better spouse, a better listener, and a better communicator. It's easy to ignore the little things that I stink at, until they start piling up on me all at once.
Aloha for now my friends, and Happy March Fourth!
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