I'm all done with my venting-fest! Yay for me! I had a good cry-fest yesterday which helped, too.I'm continuing to tap into my happy resources (prayer, scriptures, meditation, exercise, healthy foods, spending time with my boys, keeping things slow-paced) and I've even decided to add one more:
As I was riding my bike up the canyon yesterday my head started to clear from the fog. It seemed the farther I rode away from civilization, the clearer my head got. As I stopped at a bench to rest and look around at God's phenomenal creations I couldn't help but feel happy, calm, centered, and at peace with my life. It was the first true Zen experience I've had since I left Hawaii and I want more! I realized that I don't need to vent anymore, or feel overwhelmed, or cry to the often unresponsive Internet; I need to surround myself with the loving mother and drink in her beauty like one big cup-full of warm tea after another.
So adios for now www, for I will be taking some much needed intoxicating sips of nature until I feel Zen enough to come back to the modern world.
The bike path heading up the canyon that takes me up, up, and away.