Saturday, January 14, 2017

I am Happiest when

I am happiest when I am spending time with my children. They are the purest joy in my life. It's when I get too busy and overwhelmed with other things that I find the stresses of life too great to bear and find that I'm wallowing in confusion and misery. Then I slowly reel myself back in-- back to serving, nurturing, playing, laughing, and guiding along the four little people which we created into this world, and everything makes sense again.

I don't want to move anywhere. This is our home and our foundation for teaching and growing our family. We've created a beautiful life here and God keeps showing me over and over again that this is exactly where we need to be. He especially showed up after that post I recebntly wrote about wanting to move again. Haha. He showed up to show me that I needed to stop and recognize all the blessings I have and stop seeing greener grasses elsewhere. I need to keep putting myself out there as far as making friends, serving others, and creating a community for us to thrive in. This is the happiest choice.

Our children are really happy here.
We have beehives buzzing and fruit trees growing and favorite places to wander and explore. We have friendly neighbors and beautiful parks and more memories to create in these mountains and creeks.
I have book club and relief society and playgroup and snowboarding and did I mention we're building a Temple here? Our very own Temple to go to whenever we want, and only 5 minutes away up the hill!! This is going to do wonderful things for our family and our little town! Our eldest loves watching the building progress and keeps excitedly mentioning that THIS is the first temple he'll get to go in, right here in Cedar! 

My boys have their individual interests fulfilled here: swim lessons and role playing games, bike riding and rock hopping, tumbling classes and cub scouts, preschool and playgroup, and all the fun in between. They don't like having a lot of friends, just a couple special ones that we've found. They don't like big events or fancy parties or crowded rooms of people, just small gatherings with the family and friends they like most. This is something I've had to adjust to as I'm an extrovert raising introverts! (I recall on my 10th birthday I invited both my entire classes from school and church to come over and celebrate!!) My boys prefer small parties with our family ONLY. I have to stop myself from making big plans and realize they have just what they want and need in all the small and simple things.

My husband has a wonderful job here. He's good at what he does and works hard to accomplish his goals. He loves our family and loves his little boys. We come first in his life and that feels good. The love and support of a good husband is one of the most powerful things in the world. I am grateful for Micah's dedication and hard work every single day of our lives.
As far as my college classes go,  I've completed 3 classes this semester and have one more to go, but only 6 weeks to complete it: "Foundations of College Mathematics." 
And believe it or not, I am actually enjoying this class! Each day I sit down and have my ten year old do it with me (because homeschool). We have a lot of fun watching the videos, learning the material, doing the homework, and finishing the little quizzes together. Funny that my ten year old is doing my college math class with me, but it's way better than doing it alone! Plus I can ask him for help when I get stuck because for some reason his little brain grasps concepts faster than my old brain. ;)

So life is good. I've also been feeling a lot better (depression wise) as I've been daily sitting in front of my mood therapy happy light, taking my Vitamin D, and keeping up on self-care. 
Getting enough sleep is so important.  I need 8-10 hours of sleep a night to feel good. Sometimes I feel like a newborn baby!

I love our book club. It was started in September 2014 by some ladies in our ward, however, they have both moved on and now I help organize it each month. We usually get our books for free in bulk from the Utah Book Buzz. It's a program that provides books to book clubs across the state through the library system. Each month we peruse the titles and pick something new, then Book Buzz sends me about 15 copies, which I distribute to whomever wants to read it.
These are the books we have read so far, since Sept 2014: (the only one I missed reading is The Traveler's Gift). I placed stars*** next to the ones I especially LOVED ***

1.The Forgotten Garden by Kate Morton
2. The Heart Mender by Andy Andrews***
3. Orphan Train by Christina Baker Klein***
4. The Rent Collector by Camron Wright
5. The Help by Kathryn Stockett
6. Unbroken by Lauren HIllenbrand***
7. Dealing With Dragons #1 by Patricia C. Wrede
8. Words by Heart  by Ouida Sebestyen
9. Wonder  by R.J Palacio
10. Out of My Mind by Sharon Draper
11. The Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis
12. These is My Words by Nancy E. Turner***
13. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith***
14. Let Us Eat Cake by Sharon Boorstin
15. The Goose Girl  by Shannon Hale***
16. Doing No Harm by Carla Kelly
17. The Whale Rider by Witi Ihimaera
18. Agenda 21 by Glenn Beck
19. Star Girl  by Jerry Spinelli***
20. The Traveler’s Gift by Andy Andrews
21. Moloka’i by Alan Brennert***
22. Immortal Nicholas by Glenn Beck
23. The Friday Night Knitting Club by Kate Jacobs

I love to read! In fact, having a good book in my hand makes me very, very happy. People often ask me how I find time to read? I don't know! I don't watch TV, which probably helps. Also there are times when we just sit around and read as a family. I look over and my older kids are all reading, and I'm reading, and my husband is reading, and the two little ones are playing, and life feels good. 
Next on my list to read is "The Moon is Harsh Mistress" by Robert Heinlein. It's not for book club but instead my husband suggested I read it. I'm not a huge sci-fi fan, but if my husband loves it, I will at least try.  :)

Lastly, here's a picture of a cute toddler. Oh I just love him and I love being his mama!


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