Wednesday, May 23, 2018

I joined Instagram!

I joined Instagram. I know, I know, I am about 8 years behind, but since I quit facebook 6 months ago I am realizing more and more that I still want and need to stay in touch with distant friends. Instagram seems like the most simplistic and meaningful way to do it, without all the bombardment of the personal soap boxes and politics getting in the way. 

So...come find me on Instagram at Sallyseashell2018 where I'll be sharing awesome photos. And that's all.

Friends often ask me why I up and quit facebook. There are so many reasons why but the most important reason was that I felt a very strong prompting from the Holy Ghost that I needed to step back from social media. The spirit had been prodding me for years trying to tell me that it was not the healthiest distraction for me, that it was taking too much of my time and focus, that I was experiencing more anxiety because of it, and that I was becoming a slave to social media addiction. And because I'm often stubborn and prideful I kept telling myself that I was fine, that I could handle the distractions, that it was important for me to stay in touch, that I needed the distraction to stay sane as a mom, etc, etc.
But I knew in my heart those reasons weren't true. 
And because I have an addictive personality I also knew that I couldn't quit on my own so I enlisted the help of my eldest son. I basically had him change my password so I couldn't get back on until I felt ready to handle it on my own. 
I admit the first month was hard. I was so used to checking facebook everyday for the past seven years that the impulse to click on the app was overwhelming. It was like having a big, delicious bowl of pudding in front of me yet knowing I couldn't touch it. Grrrr! I LOVE pudding!  
Yet, after about a month of not being able to check it, the urges to check it stopped and the desire be on there started to wane completely. Most of all I felt the spirit confirm in my heart that I made the right choice. That was such an amazing feeling that I'll never forget.

After about a month and a half of no facebook I asked my son to give me the password. By that time I was able to clearly see the amazing benefits of quitting facebook and was able to easily deactivate my account. That was 6 months ago and I don't think I will ever return.

The most  positive benefit of quitting is the powerful way that my mind cleared. It was like a loud radio suddenly turned to low volume. Or a rushing waterfall suddenly slowing to a trickling stream. Or a crowded room full of people quieting down to a hush.
That's how my mind feels. Quiet, focused, serene, and clear.
It also feels like a conduit of creative, spiritual, and nurturing energy opened up for me. Because I'm not focusing my day-to-day on the other people's problems that I can't fix, or comparing my life to people I barely knew from college, or receiving abrasive rants and raves about politics and religion, I feel an infinite amount of ability to use my talents, skills, and care for those around me in my nearby vicinity. I have a grater desire to serve those in my community and my family. I see the world in a greater, happier light. I feel the spirit more readily and receive clearer answers to my prayers. 
The amount of revelation I need for raising these little people feels more easily in my grasp. I have a clearer memory and less anxiety about the world around me. I feel more inspired to focus on creative projects for the sake of doing something for myself. I feel more joy and less hustle when I spend quality time with my husband and  children. 

Facebook was such a bittersweet experience for me. There were so many wonderful, positive, sharing moments yet a lot of negative, too. I know it's not the same for everyone. I have friends who don't really think about it that much. They can casually check facebook maybe once or twice a week and move on with their lives. I couldn't. I would absorb every ounce of emotion and feeling and problem there was to consider and never give my brain a break. 
I'm so glad that's over. 

So, I'm going to give Instagram a try (but if it starts to feel like too much you'll know why I've disappeared again.) 

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