Sunday, December 23, 2018

I miss writing

I miss writing. I think about it everyday: all the stories I'm going to write, the book I should be working on, the writing I've done in the past, and all the missed opportunities each day that should've been spent writing! I can see why hopeful writers drop everything to spend all their time writing because it's one of those things that is intensely satisfying for what it is. You don't need a huge crowd of people to tell you your writing is awesome, and you don't need a successful, published book to feel incredible because writing makes you feel that way anyways. It's the act of writing that brings all of your versatile, undiscriminating, and raw emotions to the surface, which truly makes you FEEL alive. 

I feel alive when I am writing. I am a writer in my mind. 

But yet, I am also so many other things besides a writer. 
I'm a busy mom raising 4 boys, wife to Micah, a home manager, a college student, a cook, a chauffeur, a cub scout leader, a friend, neighbor, a ward member, an athlete, a nature explorer, and a reader. There are so many things taking up my time and energy in life that writing takes a back seat. 
I love my life and all the things I get to do, but I wish there was more time for writing. 
Fluffy fern stuff from the creek.

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